Light it up

So here I am.  Faced with the conviction that I have been recklessly using grace and a desire to “hole-up” as an excuse to run away from writing and working on this blog.  My mind was brought back to a time about a year ago where I would actually stay up past 10:30 pm on… Continue reading Light it up

Committed Willingness

My health has been an issue for some time. I have struggled with debilitating headaches that have partially collapsed my world. I did seek treatment, and it was working well, until I developed a negative reaction to a portion of the treatment. Now, with it’s general efficacy diminished, I am back to struggling to manage… Continue reading Committed Willingness

Amidst the storm…

This morning I would typically clean up, dress and head out early to a meeting. But this morning, my thoughts were preoccupied with family and things that I could do nothing about. So, I busied myself with singing prayers to God, dusting and organizing. Nervous energy activities that help me to disperse the helpless feeling… Continue reading Amidst the storm…

Step 3, or How we use our Tools against the Ego Zombie

Drum roll please…ta-da! And, here we are, at step 3. In the big book, step 3 states “Made a conscious decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.” I have enormous respect for Bill W. and the founders of modern recovery. But here is where… Continue reading Step 3, or How we use our Tools against the Ego Zombie

Personal Prayer

Boy, the character flaws are coming fast and furious as I enter the fourth year of recovery. If they were bricks to the head, I would be getting a CAT scan for the resulting concussion. Attending group tonight, and as usual, really enjoyed the music (guest musician) and the teaching by one of our group… Continue reading Personal Prayer

Willing Encouragement

Snow, rain, wet, cold. It's been a bit gunky, for sure.  The weather seems to be having a bit of a trouble deciding what it wants to do. It's ok, I'll just stay inside and watch the endless changes. Got to go to a luncheon the other day and heard a lot of great speakers… Continue reading Willing Encouragement


The sun was glorious over the clouds and pouring into my kitchen, for a moment. Then it ducked back behind the fluffy clouds. No rain for the moment. Sometimes I dream about one of my friends that I lost in my relapse. I have written about her before, so I won't rehash a whole bunch.… Continue reading Dreams…