Dealin’ with the feelins ๐Ÿ˜

Sunday morning. Had 2 grandsons over last night and all went relatively smoothly, considering they are still pretty small (3 and 6) and arenโ€™t interested in much except watching superhero cartoons and talking about super hero cartoons. Their parents have since collected them, and I am waiting for my lunch to cool down. My thoughts… Continue reading Dealin’ with the feelins ๐Ÿ˜

Recovery = integrated life

Power and control. This is the third item on the list in the talk given a few weeks ago at the meeting I attended. It can lead us into addictive and dysfunctional behaviors. For me, power and control was my drug of choice. Forget alcohol, or mind-altering substances. I loved, no, I thirsted after power… Continue reading Recovery = integrated life

Letting go, bit by bit…

Cold and crisp today. Wet too, though I did not spend much time outside. Mostly, I cooked stew and started holiday decorating. I only assisted this year, letting the spouse do most of the actual decorating, whereas years past, I would do most of it to my specific liking, and then get his input, mostly… Continue reading Letting go, bit by bit…

Move Along

Colder. Snow in the mountains. Forty degrees and raining here. It won't be long until I am wearing my wool undershirts to keep warm. Yesterday was tough. Yes, it's becoming a theme. But I am still here, still breathing and still fighting to push past my feelings. When you feel an oppressive agony to your… Continue reading Move Along

Sunday’s resolve

The sun is shining and someone hit a tree with their car near our house and took off, nearly killing the poor little fir. We hope it survives. Some days are just hard. You just come to a corner, and have to speak the truth, no matter how it sounds. And own the responsibility for… Continue reading Sunday’s resolve

Sun-Day Blooms

My garden flowers are starting to show signs of wear from the colder temperatures. Less sunlight and warmth means less vibrant blooms for some, and a downright gloomy winter dormancy disposition for others. Yet a couple seem pretty hardy despite cloudy skies and driving rains. So, considering the conditions or circumstances that I have little… Continue reading Sun-Day Blooms

Thursday chill

It was even colder today than it has been, and tonight the cold rain began in earnest. We're supposed to be getting a spell of wind, though it's a puff of air compared to the storms off the coast of Florida tonight. Much prayer and concern for those in the path of the hurricane. It… Continue reading Thursday chill

Watchful Wednesday

Watching the news reports of the storm in the Caribbean and praying for friends and family that are in the path of potential destruction tonight. Today I received additional information regarding a hot lead on my job search that gives me hope that I may have located something that would be a good fit for… Continue reading Watchful Wednesday

Late write

Sometimes, you just have to write. I cannot sleep, so out it must come. As a card-carrying codependent, I struggle with the notion of taking on what is not mine to manage. Seeing a far-off circus with monkeys and elephants and chasing after it, thinking I need to somehow manage that. My word picture right… Continue reading Late write

Saturday’s choice

It's been more fall-like today. The leaves are more umber, the air crisper and I feel a bit more melancholy. I have to try and move my way through these feelings of sadness and anger. The weather and my lack of a job is not helping. I keep wondering if this is just how things… Continue reading Saturday’s choice