Power and control. This is the third item on the list in the talk given a few weeks ago at the meeting I attended. It can lead us into addictive and dysfunctional behaviors. For me, power and control was my drug of choice. Forget alcohol, or mind-altering substances. I loved, no, I thirsted after power … Continue reading Recovery = integrated life
Cold and crisp today. Wet too, though I did not spend much time outside. Mostly, I cooked stew and started holiday decorating. I only assisted this year, letting the spouse do most of the actual decorating, whereas years past, I would do most of it to my specific liking, and then get his input, mostly … Continue reading Letting go, bit by bit…
Colder. Snow in the mountains. Forty degrees and raining here. It won't be long until I am wearing my wool undershirts to keep warm. Yesterday was tough. Yes, it's becoming a theme. But I am still here, still breathing and still fighting to push past my feelings. When you feel an oppressive agony to your … Continue reading Move Along
The sun is shining and someone hit a tree with their car near our house and took off, nearly killing the poor little fir. We hope it survives. Some days are just hard. You just come to a corner, and have to speak the truth, no matter how it sounds. And own the responsibility for … Continue reading Sunday’s resolve
My garden flowers are starting to show signs of wear from the colder temperatures. Less sunlight and warmth means less vibrant blooms for some, and a downright gloomy winter dormancy disposition for others. Yet a couple seem pretty hardy despite cloudy skies and driving rains. So, considering the conditions or circumstances that I have little … Continue reading Sun-Day Blooms
It was even colder today than it has been, and tonight the cold rain began in earnest. We're supposed to be getting a spell of wind, though it's a puff of air compared to the storms off the coast of Florida tonight. Much prayer and concern for those in the path of the hurricane. It … Continue reading Thursday chill
Watching the news reports of the storm in the Caribbean and praying for friends and family that are in the path of potential destruction tonight. Today I received additional information regarding a hot lead on my job search that gives me hope that I may have located something that would be a good fit for … Continue reading Watchful Wednesday
Sometimes, you just have to write. I cannot sleep, so out it must come. As a card-carrying codependent, I struggle with the notion of taking on what is not mine to manage. Seeing a far-off circus with monkeys and elephants and chasing after it, thinking I need to somehow manage that. My word picture right … Continue reading Late write
It's been more fall-like today. The leaves are more umber, the air crisper and I feel a bit more melancholy. I have to try and move my way through these feelings of sadness and anger. The weather and my lack of a job is not helping. I keep wondering if this is just how things … Continue reading Saturday’s choice
Fall continues to push into the landscape and with it the leaves are a bright yellow and red, the air is getting a little more nippy and there is a little less daylight to enjoy. I decided that I needed a change, so I made an impromptu visit to the hair salon for an updated … Continue reading Intentional Thursday
