There has been a lot of conversation in my house lately about the goings on of late. Things that have to do with violence against others, and behavior that no one expects or can fathom. Where is God? (He is here, and it breaks His heart to see his creation hurt each other) Does He … Continue reading What next?
I have been engaging my recovery at ground level lately, which hasn’t left a whole lot of time for reflection and blogging. It’s just been where things are at lately, and I know that as I push through the slog, more things will appear and be ready for digestible dissemination. There have been several frustrating … Continue reading The Struggle
Life is very interesting. It’s kind of like dance lessons. You have the steps down and you are counting them out, get a rhythm going and then the music changes, or you get a cramp in your foot. Our recoveries are that way, too. Sometimes we think we have a good step progression in place, … Continue reading Through, not over.
Cloudy, colder, November has set in. The song goes "I'm no longer a slave to fear, for I am a child of God...". This is running through my head during my prayer and mediation time this morning as I sit, pen in hand but not much coming up. In the recovery group I am a … Continue reading Gratitude and Release…
It was so sunny and warm yesterday, and cloudy and cooler today. I am feeling a bit like I need a push of some sort to get me going, so I trundled off to the gym before breakfast to pedal away and read up on the news. Some days I really don't like being an … Continue reading The Next Right Thing…
The sun is shining and someone hit a tree with their car near our house and took off, nearly killing the poor little fir. We hope it survives. Some days are just hard. You just come to a corner, and have to speak the truth, no matter how it sounds. And own the responsibility for … Continue reading Sunday’s resolve
It has been mostly cloudy with some rain. Hardly any blooms left for me to bring in and put on my table to enjoy. The sun does not shine on them long enough for them to really open properly, so my flowers stay closed up in tight little balls, waiting for enough warmth to open, … Continue reading Willingness and warmth
Watching the news reports of the storm in the Caribbean and praying for friends and family that are in the path of potential destruction tonight. Today I received additional information regarding a hot lead on my job search that gives me hope that I may have located something that would be a good fit for … Continue reading Watchful Wednesday
It's been more fall-like today. The leaves are more umber, the air crisper and I feel a bit more melancholy. I have to try and move my way through these feelings of sadness and anger. The weather and my lack of a job is not helping. I keep wondering if this is just how things … Continue reading Saturday’s choice
I love to judge how my life and my recovery are going by how smoothly things are in my life. How sweetly things proceed along in my day-to-day rhythm of being. No conflict, no upset of any kind, and I get the feeling that I am doing it all right, and that things will remain … Continue reading Recovery paths and corners…