Life is very interesting. It’s kind of like dance lessons. You have the steps down and you are counting them out, get a rhythm going and then the music changes, or you get a cramp in your foot. Our recoveries are that way, too. Sometimes we think we have a good step progression in place, … Continue reading Through, not over.
Cloudy, colder, November has set in. The song goes "I'm no longer a slave to fear, for I am a child of God...". This is running through my head during my prayer and mediation time this morning as I sit, pen in hand but not much coming up. In the recovery group I am a … Continue reading Gratitude and Release…
It was so sunny and warm yesterday, and cloudy and cooler today. I am feeling a bit like I need a push of some sort to get me going, so I trundled off to the gym before breakfast to pedal away and read up on the news. Some days I really don't like being an … Continue reading The Next Right Thing…
The sun is shining and someone hit a tree with their car near our house and took off, nearly killing the poor little fir. We hope it survives. Some days are just hard. You just come to a corner, and have to speak the truth, no matter how it sounds. And own the responsibility for … Continue reading Sunday’s resolve
It has been mostly cloudy with some rain. Hardly any blooms left for me to bring in and put on my table to enjoy. The sun does not shine on them long enough for them to really open properly, so my flowers stay closed up in tight little balls, waiting for enough warmth to open, … Continue reading Willingness and warmth
Watching the news reports of the storm in the Caribbean and praying for friends and family that are in the path of potential destruction tonight. Today I received additional information regarding a hot lead on my job search that gives me hope that I may have located something that would be a good fit for … Continue reading Watchful Wednesday
It's been more fall-like today. The leaves are more umber, the air crisper and I feel a bit more melancholy. I have to try and move my way through these feelings of sadness and anger. The weather and my lack of a job is not helping. I keep wondering if this is just how things … Continue reading Saturday’s choice
I love to judge how my life and my recovery are going by how smoothly things are in my life. How sweetly things proceed along in my day-to-day rhythm of being. No conflict, no upset of any kind, and I get the feeling that I am doing it all right, and that things will remain … Continue reading Recovery paths and corners…
It is partly cloudy and a bit cool, fall is asserting itself a little more insistently and the leaves are beginning to go AWOL off the trees en masse. I don't feel ready for the seasons to turn again. But here we are, and pumpkin spice has wafted it's way into my house. Still no … Continue reading Tuesday’s Challenge
A wonderful post from a good friend. Please give it a read as it is another perspective on recovery.
I was the same beautiful person then as I am now. I had the same kind heart, the same need for love and acceptance from others. The same desires to be whole and happy. I was the same woman who loved her friends and family with all her heart and would do ANYTHING that was asked of her. The same woman who would drop everything and go running to someone who needed me. The same woman who barely had the word NO in her vocabulary. If you needed me I was there. The same woman who cared about making others feel loved and important and accepted and included. The same woman.
So then how can that same woman be SO different and so changed TODAY? How can I look back on my pre-recovery self and feel as though I am talking about a stranger at times?
I have had several…
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