Construction Zone – Grief

Doing the hard work lately. Y’know, the dig-deeper stuff that causes a bit of commotion and disruption. The kind of work where you are looking at some of your past experiences in light of your recovered self, and realizing how broken you really are, and feeling the grief right down to your molars. Yup. That’s… Continue reading Construction Zone – Grief

Straight up Step Work ~ Amends

When we complete our 4th-5th step, it is the gateway to our AMENDS/Forgiveness step. I feel like this is somehow harder that the 4th step, as it requires me to lay down any claim I have to obtain some kind of apology, repayment or karmic balancing of the scales and release you from the debt… Continue reading Straight up Step Work ~ Amends

The Social Contract of Recovery

I had a number of different topics rolling around in my head to write about. Our journey in recovery is like a new chapter is revealed every single day; it’s never the same old, same old, for certain! But something is standing out today, and that is our communal responsibility to others. When we take… Continue reading The Social Contract of Recovery

Friends 4 ever…

I remember as a little kid wanting so bad to grow up so that I could be in charge. I wanted to be the one to say what was for dinner, or go out to dinner every night if that’s how I felt. I didn’t like the feeling of helplessness as a child, yet I… Continue reading Friends 4 ever…

Dreams…

The sun was glorious over the clouds and pouring into my kitchen, for a moment. Then it ducked back behind the fluffy clouds. No rain for the moment. Sometimes I dream about one of my friends that I lost in my relapse. I have written about her before, so I won't rehash a whole bunch.… Continue reading Dreams…

Indifference

First day of a new year. Lovely, if not a bit chilly, but no rain so all's good on this front. Active day wandering about and meeting up with family for a little mid-day diner action. Making spaghetti with veghetti noodles for company tonight, so that's fun. I have a good friend who is in… Continue reading Indifference