Today was hard, at first. I had already decided to give my body a break from the workout and maybe just get in a walk later.
Instead, I spent time studying some topics that have been on my mind a lot lately; shame and unhealthy guilt/morbid reflection. I cannot proceed further in my journey until I address my tendency to draw toward shame and mourning over my failings, instead of accepting them, taking appropriate responsibility/action and moving on. The struggle to release my heart and mind from the stranglehold of shame and remorse is ongoing; I continue to punish myself long after the real or perceived shortcoming. This bleeds over into all my interactions.
But tomorrow is another opportunity to start again. And so I wish you a pleasant evening my friends. G’night.